I think I understand what ur going through. Ur NOT alone. Ur NOT crazy, many ppl feel like this. I think talking 2 someone is a good way to start and u should try and go out and do activities u like to do…maybe even try something new. I can’t say I know the answer, I’m taking an anti-deppresant too, but never give up and always keep trying. whenever u want to cut urself – STOP by saying that the pain won’t get rid of the problem and instead try distracting urself with something else-a sport, music, calling a friend, running, etc.
I dont know if any of this will help but just hang in there.