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It doesn’t control me.

I’m 16 now and i’ve been 2 months free of self-harm. I started when I was 10 because I was being bullied, my family life wasn’t the greatest, and I never had any friends. I started cutting to cope with all my overwhelming emotions. And i’ve been cutting ever since. Until 11th grade when I finally told my wonderful teacher about my self-harm, and she told my parents. She always answered my questions, supported me, and really encouraged me to get better. I don’t think I could have done it without her support. It’s been really hard to stop cutting, the need was (and still is) there in the back of my mind, but now I control it; it doesn’t control me. Thanks to the help of my supportive family, my teacher, my therapist, and friends, i’m going into 12th grade self-harm free….Now, after everything, I never want to go back to self-injuring. Ever.

Urges do not control me

It’s been three months and almost two weeks since I’ve self-harmed. This is the longest I’ve ever gone without it since I started. I still get urges, but I’ve learned that the urges do NOT control what I do. I do not have to self-harm just because I feel like I do. I can learn to cope, express my emotions, and wait through the urges. I won’t lie and say it’s easier, because for me, it’s not yet. It’s still a day to day struggle to remind myself that self-harm is not the solution. It’s something I have to deal with and cope with in a healthy way, and eventually the urges will start to fade just like the scars.

Not-ashamed

I have been 1 month cut-free. I cut because I wanted people to be attentive to me, no one was noticing me, so I wanted to give them a reason to notice me. Today, I realize I didn’t need to cut, I just needed to talk. Not to a casual friend, but to someone who cares. I’m not ashamed of my past, it is what I do with it to shape my future that matters.

life is beautiful

I used to self injur it started when I was 15 and went through a traumatic event. It didn’t stop until I was 18 but not before I tried to take my own life. I was always so depressed and never felt like anyone understood me or what I was going through. I got married and was so affraid to tell my husband about it but he saw the scars and I finally explained it to him. He stood by me and he has kept me strong. We have a beautiful 7 month old daughter and I get so scared sometimes because i know someday she will see my scars and ask me where they came from. I wish I knew what to say, I trust God will give me the right words. Life is beautiful and your body is sacred. Don’t ever feel like your alone because I PROMISE you your not.

it does get better

Is it hard to believe that music can save a life? It did for me. “Carolyn” from Black Veil Brides saved me. It stopped me from self harming. If you’re out there cutting yourself,it does get better. Listen to music,block out the messed up society. “You’re not alone,we’ll brave this storm. And face today,you’re not alone”-Black Veil Brides

You can overcome SI

Like many who have recovered, I still think about SI. Sometimes I even have urges. But every time I do I am reminded of why I don’t SI now. You are strong. You can over come this! These messages only confirm this.

I define me

Even after I had stopped cuttting, I used to look at my scars and think that they defined me. They were a constant reminder of what I did, but what I didnt realize is that they were also a constant reminder of how far I have come. My scars are part of who I am, but they dont define me; I define me.

Recovery is a process…

Recovery is not an event. It’s a process. I am one year free of self injury but I still consider myself to be in recovery. It’s okay. Have faith. Things do get better. You’re worth it!

You can stop too

I am 53years old and started to self harm at 45 I have been clean (and I say clean because self harm is an addiction) for 4 years. It wasnt easy for me I could feel my arms hurting to self harm but I decided I hated the feeling of having to self harm to make myself feel good.It was always a rollercoaster ride and it became very tiring. You need to just stop,it really feels like cold turkey. Take 1 minute at a time and feel good about yourself that you are actually doing something positive for yourself.
Hurting your self is reallya moment thing it works at the time but then the feeling goes away.Yiu need to self harm to get back that feeling. Just stop and get help.This will help you to continue on your path to feel good about yourself.

Breathing

Self-injury used to be a big part of my life. I used it to forget the world around me and I could be in control. I didn’t realize I was out of control till I couldn’t stop. Talking to people about has really help me cope and quit cutting. It took me 3 trys to make it through therapy. You can do it. I am two years free of self-injury. Breathing has become easier and life has become bearable. I know I have people around who love me and support me. Cutting is never the answer. Love is.