I struggled with depression and self harm for years. I met a guy and we started dating(still are). at an early age of 13, I became pregnant with his child. When I was 3 months pregnant, I had a miscarriage. the day we found out about the miscarriage, my boyfriend and I both promised to never cut again because we knew our baby would be looking down on us from heaven. it’s been 4 months since then, and we’re both doing great. we thank our little angel and each other for helping us move on from this stage in our life. although my story most likely isn’t relatable to many of you, my point is that if you find the right motivation, you can promise to stop cutting or self harming and never look back. I know it sounds crAzy now, believe me. but if you stay strong and hold on, taking life a day at a time, or even an hour at a time , things WILL get better. good luck and stay strong all of you lovely people. You’re amazing
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never alone
I thank everyone for sharing their stories – I do believe it makes us all stronger knowing we’re not alone!
changing…
I self harmed for about 6 years, it started off because I always thought I wasn’t good enough, then when I got older my best friend had killed himself, since that day it made me realize that if I were to kill myself I wouldn’t only be hurting me, but hurting every one else. I couldn’t believe that I could possibly put my loved ones through that awful pain. so I started changing my ways, every time I felt the urge to self harm. I would go out and long board, or call up one of my friends to hang out. and soon enough I wasn’t thinking about it all the time. and I felt great.(and my skin was looking great!). since that time I haven’t self harmed or even thought about it. that would be about 3 years ago. and I couldn’t be happier.
it gets better…
I still remember when i found this site, i read all these stories about how it gets better and how good some people where doing and i thought some day that might be me.
Now I’m here, over 200 days clean without any self harming. I’m breathing and I’m alive. It gets better.
never alone
One of my best friends saw my scars and confronted me one day.” I just want you to know that no matter how alone you think you are, I will always be here for you.” After he told me that he gave me his number and told me to call him if I ever felt that I needed to harm myself again. So now I tell you, you are not alone. There is someone close to you that you can talk to about anything you face.
you WILL find strength
i’ve been clean of SI 6 months. I’m so proud of myself for being clean this long, i finally realized the ugly scars aren’t worth it, i’ve told the negativity in my life to bounce. i still get urges but they won’t over run my strength as a person, as a person who has a right to be present on this planet. but even though i’ve stopped, people will always stare at my scars no matter what, some even point them out or comment about them because scars show a sign of weakness. you can overcome this because you WILL find strength.
the first step…
Tell someone, even one person that you trust. Telling that one person is the first step to recovering, because when you think about doing it, you think of what they would say or do.
never lose hope
You mean so much, never doubt that. You are here for a reason, you don’t deserve to hurt, you have value, and I care about you. Never give in, never lose hope, never give up, because you are worth so much more.
pain doesn’t last forever
Sometimes life knocks us down. Then we look up and there isnt anyone to help us up. But we have to lean to help ourselves up. We have to learn its ok to be weak sometimes but that doesnt mean you are ONLY weak. We have to learn how to love and apreciate ourselves enough to live on and fight through pain. Pain doesnt last forever.
don’t isolate yourself…
I have not injured myself in 3 weeks and I am proud to say I have rarely thought about it. Yes I have thought about it, but I believe that the fact that I have not acted on it is great. I have been trying to recover for months now, and the longest I have gone without self-harming was 2 months. Something that has really helped me accomplish 3 weeks is my friends. Recently I have been hanging out with them often and that helps because it takes my mind off of it and they make me happy. So don’t isolate yourself, because I used to do that and honestly it just made it worse.
